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As of Monday next week I will begin what will probably be the task of a lifetime as I give up smoking after 20 years. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure a lot of people will automatically assume that giving up is easy, well I don't know if it is or isn't, as I have never tried. I'm obviously rather, well nervous, I guess. I don't know why, perhaps it's the idea of failure or maybe it is because I actually enjoy the habit; or maybe it is because I'm frightened of having the mood swings and headaches often associated with giving up. Either way I know deep down that it will not be a pleasant experience.

When I said I enjoyed the habit, I think that was a little white lie. I think I enjoy the structure of the habit. Arguably the only cigarettes I truly enjoy are the ones after a good meal and the first one in the morning with my coffee. Other than those I guess the rest are habitual and excuses to remove my sorry arse outside of the office.

I'm going for the cold turkey method, I figured that if I was going to give this a shot I would try the hardest method first and if I fail at that then I can try the slightly easy methods of patches or tablets provided by the good doctor. Why? I want the experience of giving up to be so hard that I don't ever take up the habit again, sounds stupid but I know my psychology, if I go through mental torture to quit I probably won't ever want to go through it again and so I will give up. If I take the soft option I'll lapse and tell myself "hey it's easy, just get more of those tablets/patches, you can give up any time you want" - That will lead me down the inevitable path of the Ying Yang of smoker... non-smoker... have a drink, smoke some ciggys, give up again etc... No thanks.

I'm in my early 30's, I've smoked properly since I was 15, spent a great deal of time in smoky clubs, pubs and I am now starting to notice the effects of that - it is time to knock it on the head.
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I need to provide separate RSS feeds for each type in the stream and of course an overall one. ]]> http://tek.org.uk/blog/1283/Life_Stream_plug-in_now_working
I'll be adding the moblog back at some point.

I managed to integrate my listening habits right back to 2007 (with some large gaps when I used a different media player and never bothered writing a currently listening plug-in, which is a bummer) from a local database I keep.

So let's see how it tests :) ]]> http://tek.org.uk/blog/501/Fluxbox_theme_I_am_working_on


Up here for download soon. Let me know what you think. ]]>